"Im sick and tired of just pretending to be happy when really im hurt… Hurt the fact that my life is falling apart little by little, nothing goes right anymore. Every day its harder for to be happy & to hide my sadness… Every time i think about the future, i always ended up saying “Ill never be anything in life,so what the pint of thinking about the future when truth is, I dont have a future..” Thats how bad my life is right now that I already think that i dont have a future…I dont think ill ever get married… not to him at least… Ill never have someone to walk me..well at least not my real dad…well if i ever do get married, but i doubt that i will… I should be happy since i do have a wonderful boyfriend, i have friends that care, and schoolis going great, but why be happy when i dont have a family…nor a bestfriend… Life is a bitch. Theres no point of living…. I really do wonder whats wrong with me……
We went to homecoming together. First time we held hands ^.^
Went to a party. Our first kiss.
I asked her in a weird way to be my girlfriend.
She bought me a big cookie cake
She was a free woman.
Spent thanksgiving together. …